6/21/16 Tuesday 11:35pm
What are my intention?
Well that’s a damn good question, isn’t it?
My intentions are to be free. Go with the flow. Go where the wind takes me. To an extent, of course. I’m still a virgo. My intentions are to show everyone just how full of love I am. I have so much affection to give and so many people that need to know they are loved. My intentions are to be there for myself and figure out who I am, what I want, and work on getting better. Always striving to get better.
I am currently only writing because I was having so much anxiety over the fact that I felt like I needed to start writing again that I just grabbed a pen to start getting word out before i started hyperventilating. I felt like I was going to start bursting at the seems or blurting out words that didn’t make any sense. I guess this counts as a ‘brain dump’. I already kind of feel better, even though I haven’t said anything important yet. Getting the fluff out while i re-acclimate to my handwriting accounts for something, right?
I am currently laying on my futon in my new (rented) room at Heidi and Jason’s house. Because I live here now. And this is my life. And I honestly love it.
Things are way different now and I’m coping. I’ll make it through. Change is horrifying, but I think I finally snapped. Too many people knew only bits and pieces pf me. I need to stop blocking parts of myself off to try to impress and please people. WHO EVEN CARES WHAT THEY THINK?
It’s time to make myself happy.